Pedro: I am an alternative
healer, working since 25 years in all types of holistic medicines, and
what you describe as your place in Ibiza, which i visited some 15 years
ago and i agree is a wonderful place, is the dream of many a healer. Yet
i am a little grown up now. As you say, no more kindergarten play. Maybe
we could do something together, i risk to offer you, and i again agree
that there is needed term of spiritual adultness. You are seeking for spiritual
company. That is a very valid wish. Me too. I have been able to find my
self comfortable with the every day encounters, yet sometimes my soul demands
a soul-to-soul contact. Now i understand that besides the pure pleasure
of having a spiritual contact, the reason to have it is to enhance our
capacity of serving humanity. Let us share and see what comes up. Let us
see how much truth can come through the ego veil.
BeiYin: I am not going to
aim at the goal of 'healing' but for sure that is the most necessary for
all, beginning with each individual up to the planet. Healing in the sense
of being whole, coming back to its essence, to its origin, its source.
In Falcon Blanco there is happening healing and there will be more. Ibiza
has strong healing energy: the nature, the sea, the sun and the special
atmosphere. The architecture of Falcon Blanco with domes, stones and natural
shapes, helps to re force this energy and the installations like special
rooms for meditation, overtone singing, individual sessions like massage,
etc., the 'samadhi tank' and the 'sweats lodge' are made for healing. This
will happen anyway. What is even more significant will be that several
people come together with the same intention to 'serve' then the energy
will be multiplied, not in quantity but in a way that it might go far beyond
one's personality. I am not 'Christian' but when it was said: 'If there
are two or three gathered in my name, then...' that meets it quite well.
So there might be something happen which is new and transcends the old.
We can't plan it and we can't foresee it, we just can be prepared to let
it happen. Are we ready to step into undiscovered land? Doing, thinking,
feeling without any etiquette? Can we dare to leave the old behind and
start something without knowing what will be the next step, just being
aware of the step we are taking now in this moment? One advantage we have:
There is a basic field we can start with. There is no need to worry about
our existence. We exist and we know that we will have covered our basic
needs. We don't need to waste time and energy to 'make money'. We don't
need to do anything for or because of money. We have our bed and roof and
for food we need to work very little, just taking it and preparing it.
So we can feel pretty free and can indeed concentrate our energy to 'serve',
what might mean to be open to whatever comes, so that we can respond the
way which serves the best... Let's try to watch out very carefully that
we choose the right people and look that we clear up what is vision and
what is still illusion.
Dhara: I visited Falcon Blanco
in June this year in order to participate in a 'Tantra-Yoga' group from
Berlin (Germany). Immediately I felt drawn to this place, with its open
space, its atmosphere, the special buildings, all the many plants and animals,
especially the dogs Natcho and Kalinka and last not least the people living
here: BeiYin and Laura (a Spanish lady who also lives & works there).
So it turned out that I was more interested in Falcon Blanco than in Tantra
Yoga and so I took the opportunity to get to know more about this place
and every thing around it... Here in Germany I work as a lawyer in a law
firm and I like my work. Most of the time I check and design contracts
and deal with arguments, ideas and formula. Yet, the only aim is profit
and success and it always leaves a feeling of emptiness and separation.
In Falcon Blanco I see the opportunity to live in a different way, to have
the space to discover yet unknown parts within me and to express myself
in a way of more ampleness. I don't know how this will be and what will
happen, but it is like an open door and I will dare to pass the thresholds,
leaving the old behind. So as a consequence I have already quit my job
and will arrive around the 10 th of October in Ibiza. I am not going to
write about 'spirituality' or a 'spiritual Community', I prefer to try
it out. When I read your comments, Kirsten, Blenda, Jean, Pedro, Lobster,
I'm also very curious to get to know you in real, to see, hear, ... you
- perhaps one day? It feels so good to know that there are 'like-minded'
people in this world and even better to be with them...
PS: The 'Chaos' in FB makes me want to roll up
my sleeves to get started, but I am aware that this will be a process which
has to do with myself and the people working and living there. I am prepared
that it might be not that easy, but I see the beauty behind the chaos and
I am willing to go through to it.
Pedro: Hi friends, it seems
to be forces are pulling me out of Venezuela. Economical situation is getting
worse here every day, as elections are coming next december, because chances
are a hard military might win. That is going to bring changes many don't
want. Hope i can get at least enough money to catch a plane :-) to spain.
Thank you Dhara for sharing your
opinions and insights about FB. You have the advantage of having been there.
Also, as i see, you must be quite free in an external sense, as to move
so quick. I am in the border of such decision, yet i have to ponder some
more elements. One of them is my son (please BeiYin give me some ideas
or answers about this).
BeiYin: I don't see any problem
that you come with your son. It seems to be pretty sure that you will not
leave him here in case you go, - like people often do with their animals,
that's why we have about two dozen cats and five dogs. ;-)
Pedro: He is 10 years old
now and is a wonderful sewage specimen, sensitive, sharing, art oriented
and loving sports too. Life brought him back to me after i split from his
mother 6 years ago. Both of us believe he is better with me now. So one
question is : how about children? are they allowed? and if so is there
BeiYin: Your son is welcome
in Falcon Blanco and I am pretty sure all the other will agree. As your
son speaks spanish so there is no problem with school, 'el autobus escolar'
collects the children, he would need to walk by foot about two miles, as
he likes sport so this fits. Right? Or he may take a bicycle.
Pedro: I would like to hear
opinions from the group around. In a sense we are building a family, and
a family has children and old people too, so what about extreme age people?
What about people coming with babies (that is not my case, i quit baby
BeiYin: Building a family,
fine, but I have had enough experience with babies here and I must say
that at the moment we can't accept babies. We will need all our energy
to go ahead and establish the place. Babies need that much attention and
the parents build such a strong nucleus, that they need too much energy
for themselves. I am not against families with children, but we must look
first to survive and use all our forces. With an age of 10 your son may
also fulfill some responsibilities, like watering flowers, giving food
to the animals, etc. just being a responsible member. There is one dog,
who came one day and didn't leave, he is blond and white with short legs,
a very friendly dog, his name is "leon" or "leoncito" how I call him. He
is happy here but needs personal attention, so might it be that he is waiting
for your son?
About 'extreme age people' there are things to
do, we will come back to it later on when we might talk about our initiatives
in the future...
Pedro: Well, let's keep this
brain storm going. Each person has a yearning to fulfill. Big, small, down
to earth, in the ether, what ever. Like Lobster says he wants to build
a sacred place. Who knows what is behind that? The question is how is that
stuff going to be managed as a group? I mean each people's "crazy" project
BeiYin: If the "craziness"
goes together with tolerance, understanding and sharing, then there should
be no problem. At least for my part I can say: I am crazy enough and as
well tolerant enough to give space to every bodies ideas as long it doesn't
hurt somebody or the group. But about that we may talk ...
Pedro: I like to heal. So
i develop constantly more new and subtler ways of healing, with crystals,
with my thought, restoring the Original pattern, materializing a virtue,
etc. I would like to go on with that. It is not that it is my profession.
It is my soul manifesting. Besides that i love working with wood, photography,
planning, building and fixing any thing, writing (poetry too), computers,
internet. I belonged to an esoteric school for 12 years where my work was
-always- to take care of the garbage. So, i am not afraid of work, what
ever it may be.
BeiYin: We don't need to
talk anymore: It is pretty sure that you are the person I am waiting for!
You know there is such a lot of garbage, I really need to share this with
you. (I guess I don't need to make a 'smily' now).
Pedro: I like this idea,
your idea, our idea. But please, help me in this temporal emotional weakness
i may have: if there is a reason why latin america is called third world,
that is more than correct the name for Venezuela right now. I am in the
midst of that situation. You know, is like being jailed. Can you believe
that a normal medical doctor here doesn't get even a $1000 a month in Venezuela?
Yet every item he uses comes from the USA, full priced.
BeiYin: Even if you would
live in a good position, earning a lot of money, etc. even then you might
want to come to live in Falcon Blanco. Dhara has dropped all this because
there are other needs to be fulfilled. We have a 'call from within' and
there are no circumstances which will hold us back from going for this.
Pedro: So that brings me
to another point, which is money. BeiYin says we need no money. Curious
enough, i dream of a world without money, where people are loving and evolved
enough to give you what you need, whenever you need it, same as you will
do in their case. I feel we must work to get that, at least in a small
scale now, yet we have to recognize we still live in a materialistic world
which only sees $$$.
BeiYin: You may learn things
from me as I might learn other things from you.
We don't need to work for money. We do what we
like to do and that what is necessary by responding to what shows up in
this moment. I was told (from my inner voice) that I would have always
enough money for what would be necessary and as much as would be good for
me. And I can ensure you that this became true. Another time I will talk
more about it... We can have the confidence that we are guided. Right?
And we are open to influences which guide us. When I was told something
which felt right then I trusted it and so it could be realized. When I
was checked a few times then it was a proof of my trust. About 'money'
I am ready to keep my attitude to the most extreme we are capable.
Pedro: I might have to sell
my car and other things to have the money to fly to Ibiza. I have an office
which i shall have to close and maybe sell all in it. Big changes and no
problem to face them, yet that decision has to be taken with responsibility.
So please, let us share our opinions about that.
BeiYin: I can't tell you
what to do. You must listen to yourself and do what feels right, (you mentioned
it already very clear: The decision from your heart.) you can trust this
and you will not make any mistake. If it feels right that you come to Falcon
Blanco, then go for it. Ask me whatever you want, which might help you
in your decision.
Pedro: I dare to say all
this because i am feeling a high level of commitment in this group.
Answering to Dhara's wish to know each other, we might begin to share
pictures of us, i propose. I have a lot more to say. Well, next time. Love
to all, Pedro.
BeiYin: That's the way that
we will 'come together': sharing and trusting.
I just read Pedro and BeiYin's dialogue. It covered a lot of ground, answered
questions for me and then made me initiate some self-questioning. We can
all learn much about each other through this vehicle. I think that sometimes,
when we are in the midst of making a decision which will impact our "safe
little lives," we get a kick in the butt that makes the decision a little
less painful to make. It sounds like this has happened to you, Pedro. The
climate in Venezuela has shifted to the point that it seems you need to
leave. I, myself, have had a very strong urge to go to FB, and now I am
beginning to understand why. When I read the mail from Dhara and now from
Pedro, I am visualizing a space that is very appealing. I am a critical
care nurse in the U.S. but consider myself more of a holistic nurse and
spiritual healer. I utilize a lot of massage and reiki in my patient care,
to try to give very sick people some comfort and solace. I try to create
a mindless space for them that is temporarily void of monitor alarms, ventilators
breathing for them, pain and anxiety. In the U.S. we have everything available
in health care and many times these things are over utilized to put money
in the pockets of health care providers, mainly physicians. We recently
had a man die in our unit who morally should have had his treatment stopped
months ago. In-stead, he was kept "alive" and was awake and aware of his
misery. When he finally died, his hospital bill was one million dollars...
to be paid by the taxpayers. And yet there are many people in this country
who have jobs and cannot afford health insurance or health care. That is
why I must stay 'in the moment', so to speak, or it would all become overwhelming
The past two years, I have gone
to Guatemala to help build a house and to assist with free surgeries. These
times renew me and make me feel joyful. I love being with people who have
so little in terms of money, and are so trusting, generous and full of
love and faith. It is a very humbling experience for me.
I also have a family, and many pets.
I would like to come to Ibiza next summer and work for three or four weeks.
I collected all the medical supplies for the trip to Guatemala, all from
things that are to be thrown away here. Even most of our instrument trays
are now thrown away. It is such appalling waste! If you need anything that
I could collect, I would be happy to send it or bring it. Like I have said,
I am willing to do any type of work.
Pedro, if you are taking your son,
I would be interested in bringing my 8 year old daughter, who is also very
creative, friendly and would love to help with pet chores, gardening, or
anything that she is able to do. I am trying to steer her away from the
warped American value system, to grow and become evolved on her own. Of
course, she chose to be born in this country, so some of it is just what
she chose as life lessons. I envision so many beautiful people and experiences
at FB and hope that I can become part of it. We have the opportunity to
create a network of "like- mindedness" from around the world, to come together
for growth and pleasure, to serve each other and those around us. I know
that we have been drawn together for a purpose... I have felt this coming
to my life for the past two years, but I let it go, learned patience and
didn't question what this wind that was blowing me around was, or where
it came from. Now I know. It is all very exciting!
Lobster: Do we have building
capacity/rights? My immediate though is to create a sacred space on a physical
plane. To have this space respected and not allowed to be another 'temple'
or 'meditation room' for everyone. When people who are impure in their
intent enter such a building part of them is left - just as those in a
special state of mind leave this. What we have is a process or possibility
for a 'amplification process'. This might sound rather elitist? However
I hope you understand what is being said.
BeiYin: I understand what
you are saying, although I see it not limited to a space someone might
create. A sacred space on a physical plane is "Planet Earth", the nature,
our bodies and possible also a space we might create. So if you feel that
you want to construct such a space, this should be possible, it depends
on its dimensions if we need an official building permission or not. Not
long ago I have build a 'sweat lodge' just from reeds and clay, pretty
sacred and it fits into the landscape. You can also dig a cave into a slope,
for this we don't need an official permission. I am not that much into
building anymore, what you will understand when you know all the buildings
in FB, I have mostly build with my own hands. - Right, the domes I have
build are indeed 'amplifier' and pretty powerful. One of them is that strong,
that I used it only for a few months and had very strange experiences,
then it was used for a group of pregnant women and I couldn't use it anymore.
After the women group had left after two years, it was not possible to
use it anymore and it was a storeroom for many years. Then again I cleaned
it up and prepared it, I guess for the same you would do. But I felt that
I didn't want to do it alone, so after a while I used it again as a storeroom,
this time for food, we are getting in abundance. Half a year ago an astrologer/healer/magician
came and he wanted to use this dome. We cleaned it up, but before he could
use it, strange things happened and he left. Since then the room is unused.
It is a dome like a 3/4 of a ball, 5 m diameter, without windows just has
three round 30 cm holes and several other openings... So maybe this space
is just waiting for you?
to relate to Life differently...
BeiYin: During the last 25
years I have experienced that my different attitude towards the materialistic
aspect of life works in a surprising way.
This attitude has its history which
maybe should be mentioned:
Many years ago, when I still was a young man,
I had started to meditate. During this process of connecting with subtle
energies of my self, I had questioned many things of our society and also
the attitude towards money, because I had seen that every thing seemed
to turn around this.
To make the story short: I was told
from an 'inner voice' that I should not worry about money. It was said
that I would have always enough money and that much which would be all
right for me and I would get every thing what I would need. Well, I trusted
this and I went on living with this confidence. I went through many phases
of my life, had a business starting with no money, never having too much
but always enough to go on. I did things I wanted to do, was married for
12 years, etc. When this phases of my life were lived, I came to Ibiza.
A had just enough money to do the down payment for some land with a ruin
on it. No money left. Then started a new phase by practicing my attitude
differently because I had no income at all, but I had a horse, two dogs,
cats, chicken and myself to feed. I started to rebuild the place with very
little money and sometimes it was tough, because once for example I had
to decide to buy cement - or food and I bought cement... and then I got
surprisingly on the same day some food from somewhere else. Sometimes it
felt as if my trust was checked. The hardest was one day, when I had no
money to buy food for my dogs. So when in the evening they were looking
at me with big eyes and there was no food, then I said: Once in a while
a day without eating is good for your health, tomorrow you will have food.
And from then on there was always food for everyone and now after all those
years, I am getting the best meat in abundance for my animals and ten times
more they can eat and all for free, so I had to organize a distribution
system to give it to other people with a lot of animals... So this was
just an example. In the same way it worked with all other things. I build
up the place and now there is living space for about 20 people, there is
plenty of food and there are possibilities to do creative things. (I am
getting a lot of material from people, they are calling me to fetch it,
so I have twenty times more material than I can use for my sculptures,
Since several years I am trying
to find people who might like to live in a kind of 'community' but even
working a lot in the Internet since three years, there seems nobody interested.
The materialistic aspect seems to be that important for most people, that
it doesn't fit into my life style, even those so called 'spiritual people'
seem to be the same in this aspect. Well, I don't want to do things halfheartedly,
but this makes it difficult for most people. But it is hard for me to believe
that there are nobody who consequently is living or willing to live what
already 2000 years ago was taught: 'Strive first for the kingdom of heaven
then everything else will fall into your lap...' or something similar.
I am not Christian but this says it very well.
I still can't understand how it
is possible that people are 'spiritual' and then they just switch and the
money with all materialistic aspects takes over and influences their behavior.
(Well, I know how this is possible, I have written a lot about it.)
I have created the mailing list
"Liberty beckons" to invite people who are interested to join our discussion.
If your read the archive, then you can make your comment and send it to
me. I really would like to meet like-minded people and have an exchange
with them. There was written quite a lot until now but still we are on
the first steps of a 'coming together'.
Blenda: This piece you have
written is heartfelt. It is truth.
All of this discord and unkindness
among people who are calling themselves spiritual, sent me into a period
of introspection... which proved to be a time of profound darkness.
I try to respond to all from perspective
of love, and yet my buttons were pushed during these internet confrontations
and I also responded unkindly. I defended myself when it was not necessary.
I sank down, until I felt ill.
I now have more of an appreciation
for what it has been like for you trying to find likeness to share your
space. Many words were written over the past couple of weeks, and many
things were misunderstood. I came across this and wanted to share it with
'Words are merely utterances: noises
that stand for feelings, thoughts and experience. They are symbols. Signs.
Insignias. They are not Truth. They are not the real thing.' It is a simple
statement, but one which helped me to shift through all that has gone on
I want to come to FB, just to be. Anything else
will become clear to me as I meditate. I want my daughter to experience
it however she will. I want it to be simple.
All the talk going on about FB was
making me dizzy. It was getting too intellectual and too complicated. My
life is already too complicated! I feel comfortable with your thoughts
and your feelings. I'm not asking for anything more.
Dhara: I also read most of
the discussions with Pedro and Lobster. It's exchanging arguments on an
intellectual level, which is fine, but not enough for me - and I guess
also not for you. I exchange ideas and arguments the whole day here in
the law firm which is just intellectual gymnastics.
I don't want to waste my life with
this kind of games (until now it was all right, but now its over).
And I was lucky enough to discover
FB where there might be new opportunities. I want to go there and I do
it. As I read, you also want to come to FB. When we are going to meet?