Quote: "Suicide is the #1 killer of people
with fibro and cfs..."
Wanting to save lives
is a valid motivation for one's doing. That's not my intention in the first
place. I want to give information so that a sick person can change their
view and attitude and that hope and senseless suffering can turn into a
creative happening that can be a true healing and growing process.
from people with Fibromyalgia, Cancer, Aids, etc. and then the fact that
I myself went through the experience of Fibromyalgia, gave me the understanding
why people kill themselves.
Constant pain takes
a lot of energy up to one's limit. My experience was that strong pain over
a long time is changing ones personality. When the suffering person can't
find help through the established health system except with pain killer,
that give a release, but the body system also needs energy to deal with
those chemicals, then the physical and emotional energy goes down more
and more. No wonder that deep depressions are the inevitable result. We
are experiencing the lack of knowledge of medical doctors and how they
still are keeping their posture of authorities. The suffering person is
in need to find help somewhere and feels impotent to get out of this dependency,
not knowing what to do or where to go, this is squeezing one into a position
without any hope to get out of it. There is nothing left: traditional religious
beliefs don't help and philosophical or spiritual concepts doesn't seem
to have any value anymore. That obviously seems to be the end.
I was lucky enough
not needing to go through all of these steps. Yes, I had unbearable pain
and also an extreme lack of energy. But I never took any painkiller and
I never had depressions, although some mood swings. I had learned in my
early years to bear strong pain without the help of chemicals, so for example
the dentist could take out the nerve of a tooth without anesthesia and
I could bear this. Of course it was no fun but I could take it. So when
I went through the pain of Fibromyalgia, I was able to deal with it. As
I have written at my Web site testimonial: 'I see disease as a challenge
within one's personal growing process. One is NOT a victim of 'bad' circumstances.
Disease is part of a healing process that goes much further and includes
all levels of one's being...'
So this attitude gave
me the base together with a long meditation practice not to fall into depression
and still seeing it as a challenge, although going through all the other
described steps of suffering and feeling impotent caught in a health system
that can't offer any real healing.
I had the advantage
not to use my last energy dealing with a depression, I used it to do a
step out of the dependency from the medical system. I had tried enough
with treatments to finally understand that they couldn't help me in a creative
way. Maybe just keeping me alive for some time, but this was not
enough for me: I preferred to die but I didn't want to depend any longer
on a system that was treating only symptoms without knowing anything about
the cause, not even being interested to look for it. So this situation
gave me enough motivation to search myself to find a treatment, - and so
For about eight years
I had suffered from symptoms of Fibromyalgia. Medical doctors and healers
couldn't find any organic cause and treated me into the blue, with some
release as long as the different treatment lasted but the pain and other
symptoms were coming back when the treatment stopped. But about all this
I have written at my Web site; now I want to point out what could be a
key to get out of the desperate situation when one is near to commit suicide
because there is no hope and every thing seems totally without sense.
This situation is the
challenge to make a decision: To step out of dependency! Not only from
medical authorities but out of dependency in general! Well, one will need
to start somewhere. So one might start to quest whatever shows up: any
thought, anything one was told. Like: "There is no cure, you have to live
with this". NO! This is not true. But there is no use that I tell you this,
you have to find it out by yourself. At the moment of decision you need
to give yourself a chance, just by leaving it open to what will happen!
You don't know and you don't need to know. This is the first step and this
is enough for the moment.
After this initial
step you will have gained already enough energy to look ahead and you are
open to receive some information to go on. Whatever comes, you will need
to decide, you will need to select and then to do what
feels right for you. Even if you don't know anything about medical
conditions, you may start to trust your own feelings. Worse you probably
can't get, so you may as well take the risk. There is enough valuable information
out there and for sure also a lot of traps, so in the first place trust
yourself, although being careful with it...
Does it make sense
to you? Can you dare to ask questions? Not to me or any authority, that
for sure I'm not, but ask yourself, then you will see that the answer will
show up. But without question there will be no answer. Remember: when you
were a child you were asking a lot of questions, this was a sign that you
were growing up. Then you probably didn't ask anymore, whatever the reason
might have been. Now again is the moment to grow, so...
You might ask yourself
what sense such severe diseases as Cancer, Aids, Fibromyalgia, etc. might
have. Yes, it is violent and destructive, but isn't it often the case that
destruction gives space for something new? A severe disease is obviously
destroying one's personality with all one's future plans and self images.
Maybe this is the sense? Maybe here we can find the essential meaning of
being sick and also the way to heal ourselves? So that something new can
grow, that goes beyond the worn out and stuck form which had developed
until now? Might this be the real healing, more important than just the
healing of one's body? Can you sense that something new is opening up?
You might use this new attitude as a 'working concept' and you will see
that it makes sense after only very few experiences with this surprising
I hope this writing
has inspired you enough that you want to do something about your condition.
Your new attitude might be the most important, then you will be able to
do some practical steps like doing a cleansing, a check up of the way you
feed your body and mind, how you can get out of the vicious cycle of stress
and more. Some hints you will find at my Web site:
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How can one end one's nightmare of suffering?
By waking up! Getting out of one's limited, narrow minded personality!
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