within myself - but what is 'myself'?
aging body can't be all - week and fragile
though my fantasies go far out - limitless
it's border in my inboxed mind frames.
freedom - a dream of lifelong longing
are my feelings? Reactions of love or hate.
by likes and dislikes, fed by common goals
is what I really want? Is it just happiness?
it that I want to feel alive, more real - now.
proof of my existence - more and more!
what I do: My self expression, my reactions
to make me feel myself, - my unique being?
is reacting? I'm aware of the me behind?
needs these games of confirmation of oneself
identified with all these common concepts
believes and blown up self images for all.
am I, a slave of adapted fabricated pictures,
security by following the herd of ignorant?
of substitutes offers all kind of it:
of money comes first, one has to fight for,
for freedom - illusions of satisfaction.
excitement or calming into numbness
is available as drinks or pills - instant happiness.
to wake up, daily life keeps us all down.
mortgage, family, sex life, health problems
sucks and keeps one fully occupied and busy.
key could there be to get out of it for good?
trust all those promises of salvation around
serving similar manipulation games to trap all.
a way to get out - this I want to know.
I will find out about myself: My human nature
and within myself, all so well in common goals.
being aware that the need for property reigns
my satisfaction by being identified with it all. Defending one's world
view and what is owned.
concepts - blinders not to see the key.
really need attention provoking others around?
nice and pretty or bad and ugly depending
good or bad upbringing and personal history.
depend feeling well on how others treat us?
in bodies of grownups, insecure of ourselves
constantly confirmation for our existence.
is owned by one's property, possessed.
drop luggage from my bend back, free myself.
aware when reacting out of defense, step back.
need for survival is inbuilt since prehistoric
all fields of existence without exception
alive - one wants to feel even more alive!
of existence - every thing else is surplus one still can enjoy without
getting sucked into stuff. Relating to this very moment and to what shows
up responding out of my existence, the best I'm capable not yet knowing
my mirrored background structure observing myself critical, clearing
happens: The Key.