> If you've
never asked the question
> Who or when or why
or how
> Give your mind that
great suggestion
> Go ahead and do
it now
> You will find when
you consider
> All the options
that abound
> There is still but
one conclusion
> Where peace of mind
is found
BeiYin:
Yes, one might ask these questions if one is disturbed and out of balance,
because
the concept one has
build up through out one's life has collapsed and nothing seems
to make sense any
more. So then there are offered a lot of options, one only need to
choose. If one has
failed in a materialistic outside goal, then something religious
might give new sense
and satisfaction, and so the desired peace of mind is found.
This might work for
some time keeping one busy. One can survive. If one has avoided
the many offered and
socially accepted means to dump oneself into numbness, like with
drugs, medication,
alcohol, etc. or finding a similar numbness in work, sex or
entertainment.
> What matters
most in life today
> Is where you stand
along the way
> Not what you have,
but what you are
BeiYin:
This is meant in a 'spiritual' sense and so offering a new concept to be
adapted. But
who are we? Now it
is the usual that we are what we own: Knowledge, wisdom,
intelligence, good
feelings, bad feelings, love feelings, hate feelings, then our
body and all the things
we have gathered. All these we are and of course all those
concepts, beliefs,
habits, attitudes. All this makes our precious personality, that's
what we are. Now we
are told that we are more and we need to trust in something
beyond ourselves,
what we can't see or experience, but when we believe in it and when
we trust, then this
will come to us. If we are in need, because we are not yet
content with what
we have and are, then we are open to try a new concept. It doesn't
really matter if we
try another concept, what can happen? Most important that we are
kept busy and don't
fall again into an empty space. This feeling must be avoided as
it let us have doubts
in our identity and so our feeling of existence is reduced.
But hey, in another
post I read that the glass must be first empty because it can be
filled with something
else, something better. Now. if my personality only starts to
empty, then I get
into panic feelings and I will try to fill up the gape immediately.
So I will not allow
to become totally empty and so never will be filled with
something new. If
I fill up a gape with a promising new concept, spiritual or not,
then this will not
make me empty for something new, in contrary it just continues
with the old satisfaction
games. Now my real doubts start and with this my questions.
But I doubt all answers
which might be offered. Are these filling me up or do they
help me to empty me,
so that maybe I can experience myself without being identified
with all those contents?
Looking through all those offers, I prefer not to trust
anybody and any new
concept or instance which has to do with words and feelings, so
that I can again grasp
at them and so stay trapped. I am looking now for something to
not depend. I want
to take the reins into my own hands, I want to be responsible for
myself. I will not
walk any known path, if there is no path visible then I will just
sit down and rest
or look into myself what might show up from there. New questions
are showing up. I
am capable to observe my feelings and my thought, yes, I am my
feelings and my thoughts,
but when I can observe them, then I as the observer must be
more than that what
I observe. Right? So I'm aware of this instance and I'm aware
that to be this, there
is nothing else necessary than just this awareness. I
experience an unknown
calmness, which is not disturbed by any thoughts or any
sensation. I know
that I exist, even without property. I can own it all but I am free
of it and don't depend
anymore on it. Now I can get up and see who I am when I
confront daily life.
How will I relate to what shows up in front of me, not
responding out of
my condition as an owner who needs to defend his property, but as
an observer who is
free of those worn out conditions?
A new adventure in
my life has started and I see it as a challenge which let me
experience myself,
I can enjoy myself and feel like a bird carried by the uplifting
wind... effortless
towards the light.
BeiYin
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