Text of Audio : What is the best way to kill myself? *1*

You ask me what the best way is to kill yourself. This is a very serious. If you want my honest answer - I will try not to be too serious - then I must tell you that the best way to die is to let it happen in the most natural way.
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Isn't this how most people are killing themselves anyway? So just do the same: Breath polluted air, drink contaminated water or with chemicals enriched sugar drinks, eat the usual junk food, have a lot of stress joining in the rat race, try to have success in all the dubios goals offered by this society, buy a house on credit, marry and have many children. Just do the usual things every body is doing... You don't need to do something specific to kill yourself, it will happen by itself. It will not last long, with all the stress you will get sick very soon. Remember how it started with you: Your energy was going down, so you used coffee that gave you a kick; later you took stronger stuff that kept you going. When you couldn't sleep well, then you took pills, the same when your digestion didn't work, when you had stomach pain, headache and other disturbance like depressions. There was medication for every thing! [Just not for stupidity, no pills can eliminate this too common symptom!]
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Then with ongoing time the function of your whole system was more and more reduced, your mood went down, your thinking became unclear and cloudy and you were getting angry in occasions that didn't affect you before. But you couldn't express your anger freely because you knew that others would react and defend themselves and you didn't want more trouble you had already anyway. So you swallowed your anger, but this made that more and more anger accumulated and you had the urge to let it out; you felt that otherwise you would have exploded without being able to control it. So you were looking for occasions at least to get out some of the pressure and if you couldn't find suitable occasions, then you provoked them. Then people reacted giving you the possibility to use their reaction to get out some of your anger. But this didn't work out well, because you entered into a game that didn't satisfy you and didn't allow to build up a good relation with people. You haven't been aware of this and it seemed you had no choice, so your mood went down more and more and some serious health problems were showing up. You came to this moment when you feel that it is not worthwhile to continue with your life.
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When tension is building up it affects the whole system. The function of organs is disturbed causing severe symptoms. That's the moment when one can decide: One can go into treatment with the established health system, trusting that they will fix you, with surgery or medication, that will eliminate the symptoms, but then causing others as side effects and as the reason is not treated, other symptoms will show up, probably on a deeper level. So that one enters into a spiral of suffering that will finally cause the collapse of the system and one will die.
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There is the alternative possibility that you do a step out of your miserable feelings and make a decision: get out of dependency, take self-responsibility and find out why you are in this condition that causes you wanting to throw away the most precious you have. You are capable to change your situation and miserable condition, to heal yourself and so change your condition completely then being able to live healthy and happy.
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That's an interesting and challenging process and will need your full engagement because it involves your whole existence; you need to find out about all aspects of your being. Not only the body, but also your emotions, your mind and other levels going beyond all what you have experienced until now.
Indeed fascinating! And the result might be, that you will be completely healed and are able to live healthy and without suffering, being able to enjoy your life and make yourself and others happy.
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Feeling as a victim of situations and happenings and being pushed down, is the result of a negative attitude, the other is that you start right now to ask yourself some questions and find out why you feel so bad that you want to kill yourself. If something for you is worth nothing, because you are in such a miserable state caused by disappointment and pain, then you might throw it away without giving yourself the chance to find out, that indeed your life has value and sense.
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So wouldn't it be better to do some effort before you want to do something that can't be undone? Your decision comes out of desperation from accumulated anger, frustration and disappointment. Why this has accumulated? Was it because your dreams, illusions and your expectations were not fulfilled? From where did you receive those images and concepts that you have made to your own? These pictures had given you motivation and going for it had accelerated your energy and the feeling of existence. Then when reality did not meet your expectations, then you got disappointed and angry and this again and again... until you came to the point to give up because your energy went down too much. Better to look at your background and discover that those images doesn't serve you, they cant give you real fulfillment and happiness, so then why not look for something more real that serves you better? Take self-responsibility and don't depend on others and what is offered. Find out in the first place about yourself, there is much more you will discover that will give you real motivation and new energy. The key might be that you find new ways to express yourself. You might have an artistic talent you don't know yet... I'm convinced that we all are artists, in one way or the other, it depends only on our attitude, world view and in how far we allow ourselves to be creative. Expressing yourself you will feel good with yourself, all the rest will follow.
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Does this sound right? There is much more to say, but find out by yourself, this is part of the new challenge. Ask yourself questions and then ask others, you will receive answers. - And you will find out, that life indeed is worth to live and is miraculous. Go on, go for it...